Month: January 2023

The Beloved Who Suffers Well – Part 4

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Beginning the new year with quite a challenging reflection was not my intention. However, that week’s experience has prompted me to write and share a rather challenging reflection. In the midst of being so sick, I was thrown with a situation where assumptive judgment was placed on me with no possibility of a real conversation. Here’s the reflection written and shared on 1 January 2023

Happy New Year! Hope you had a great time closing 2022 with gratitude and welcome 2023 with joy. Sharing with you this week’s reflection with the theme “Grace-filled Dance”

Last week on Christmas night, I’ve been thrown with an unexpected challenge. In my quest of sharing my life through my healing journey, someone I loved and respected was apparently unhappy about my health decisions and judged me of being on the wrong path both healthwise and spiritually. This was communicated to me via another person. I was shocked as there was never a real conversation and everything was based on the person’s assumptions. She never opened a real conversation with me, so I felt trapped.

Thanks be to God for His grace and the skills I have built over the years to shift to safety and then to process the whole situation. Being a person who cares about my relationships, that incident affected me and it showed on my body. As I reflected on it, I am being reminded of Simeon’s prophecy to our Blessed Mother;

“A sword will pierce your own soul” – Luke 2: 35

The other person has no idea of what it is like to live with a chronic illness. It is so unpredictable and for my case it’s an invisible disability. People can be mean and judgmental; and I realized that Christ is inviting me to also suffer well in times of being misunderstood. Our Blessed Mother taught us how and I want to be like her; dancing to the music of life with grace.

Dear friends, thank you so much for being part of my journey these past 4 weeks. As I step out in faith to bring hope for people who suffer, through expansion of my calling as a coach; I am making all my past and future reflections available on my website (fullyalive.live). I believe that everyone deserves victory in their suffering and I am honoured to be bringing this message to the world.

Wishing you a grace filled 2023 and may you enjoy the dance of life with Christ by your side.

May your soul give glory to the Lord in all circumstance for He is good and He looks on you with favor. I pray that this series of the my reflection blesses abundantly.

Love and blessings,
Irene

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The Beloved Who Suffers Well – Part 3

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It was Christmas day of 2022 when I wrote the 3rd reflection. The birth of Christ takes on a deep meaning in my heart. It felt like a scene from the Passion of Christ when Veronica approached Jesus with a cloth to wipe His face. At that moment, the noises surrounding the scene quietened and the focus was all on Christ. I felt like that last Christmas, the noises quietened down and only Christ matter. I pray that you are blessed by this sharing.

Merry Christmas! Sharing with you my reflection this week with the theme “Restful Wonder”

Praise be Jesus Christ that I am continuing to improve. My sister has left for home since last Thursday and I have been able to do more at home, even able to cook meals. My muscle strength continue to improve with the current treatment plan and I have also been able to taper down the on demand drug.

Receiving the sacrament of reconciliation prepared me to ponder upon the gift of Child Jesus on Christmas. What does Jesus wants from me this Christmas? Pondering on the wonder of Baby Jesus who’s adorable, totally trusting, vulnerable, peaceful and infinitely loveable invited me to one important element: CONNECTION.

Jesus invites me to a deeper connection with Him and this year it’s a fluffless connection. Nothing else matter, just pure eye locking deep connection kind of relationship with Christ. Being able to rest in the wonder of our God who became one of us has been grace filled healing moments for me.

I wish you a Blessed Christmas with a deep connection with the Adorable Baby Jesus who Heals.

May you find your deepest daily connection with the One who draws you to Himself.

Love and Blessings,
Irene

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The Beloved Who Suffers Well – Part 2

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My dear sister Bea who was instrumental in bringing me to a space of living out my desire to be known has been supporting me to do something about it. That’s what got me into sharing my reflection weekly during a very trying time healthwise. God is so good in providing friends who supported me through it.

The second reflection is one that prompted me to step out in faith. One of my biggest struggle is faith in providence, it was difficult during my years as a full time lay missionary, it was still very challenging afterwards. With the lion within me awakened, I know what is required of me is just to step out in faith: I do what I know what to do (the natural), and then trust God fully that He will do the supernatural. Here’s the reflection written and shared on 18 December 2022, may you be blessed.

When desperate, call on St. Jude! That was exactly what I did on 9 Dec, asking many companions to pray together with me. St. Jude activated saints around me that loved me into the deep which eventually led me to stillness that brought about breakthrough.

Examining my desire to be healed led me to realise how much I did I not prioritise my body due to limited funds. I wanted to check the state of my body and take the right action, I did not. I wanted to do a proper body detox and cleanse, I did not. I wanted to eat more organic, that happened limitedly. Realising my own sin against my body; I apologized and reconciled with my body.

My body start opening up to respond positively to treatment. I started gaining more sleep with nightly deliverance prayer from anxiety. Then I started embodying a decisive identity of “I am important”. Being decisive to make me a priority led me to my current holistic doctor. With renewed hope, I’ve started a nutritional supportive regime and so far my body is responding well.

Praising God for His favour and thanking you for your continous prayer. As I dare to hope and trust in the Lord, I am also sharing my appeal with you. Please pray about this and I truly appreciate any form of support.

Love and blessings,
Irene

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With this reflection, I attached my appeal and my work in mental fitness promotional poster. For the purpose of sharing it here, I have removed edited out some information due to sensitivity and ethical practice.

The responses I garnered were mixed; some are very encouraging, some even took action to bless me financially, some immediately helped me to promote my work and some went totally silent. The silent part can be deafening and I took it with grace, believing that they are praying for me. This stepping out in faith exercise brought me to realization that I finally get it: I get the lesson that God is teaching me since the beginning of my YES to Him. The idol of my false sense of self sufficiency was well and truly shattered this time. I realized all these while, what I thought was lack of trust was rooted in me trying to control all the outcomes of my life including my attempts to control God. Now I understand the sense of lack of freedom whenever I am invited to trust God in financial providence. With all sincerity, I tried my best to trust and allow God to work but there’s more anxiety than freedom. This amazing breakthrough that came with the awakened lion within is grace from God. I am also seeing this partially as the fruit of my own daily practice of mental fitness. All these has been prepared before hand for me to come to a moment of grace where I dare to step out and I also dare to trust and allow God to provide as He pleases.

So here I am stepping out in faith to invite you to consider my work in mental fitness training. If you are curious about this, connect with me. If someone you know may benefit from this program, send them to me. I pray that you are blessed by my reflection and that you are encouraged to find victory in your challenges and sufferings. May you find the courage to step out in faith!

With lots of love,
Irene

The Beloved Who Suffers Well – Part 1

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Having the privilege to be off drugs and living pretty well for a short period of time has been nothing short of a blessing. Being inflicted with a nasty flare up of Myasthenia Gravis around end of November all through December of 2022 has become an awakening for me. I am given yet another chance in life. I praise God for the people He placed in my life to bring forth “a new life” in me. I was so sick that I can only share my reflections personally with close friends. Those who supported me has been a blessing to me and has been blessed by my sharing. So here I am sharing my past reflections in parts as I believed that everyone deserves victory in their suffering.

This was written and shared on 11 December 2022 and it was my breakthrough reflection.

Upon being invited to stay with the desire to be known, so many things came out. One identity I am invited to take on now is “The Beloved who Suffers Well”. I sensed my own discomfort in it but then who is the first Beloved who Suffers Well? None other than our Lord Jesus Christ. He showed us that the Cross is the way to Glory and I am to be focused on the grace of the moment.

What came out of my reflection surprised me. I only want to be known of the good stuffs but in my reality now I am crying out to be known in my suffering. To dare to bare the suffering. So here are the symptoms I am experiencing:

– muscle weakness
– unable to swallow properly without drug. It’s sometimes hard even with drugs
– severe double vision
– dizziness
– unstable movement
– jittery feelings on my muscles
– cold numbness on my lips and pallate
– slurry speech
– loss of appetite
– heaviness on my chest
– anxiety / depression (drug related)
– diarrhea (drug related)

I desire to suffer well like Christ and I recognise opportunities to do that. When things felt good, praise Him and when it is not that pleasant; look to the Cross for His grace for all these shall pass.

Continue to pray for me.

Love and blessings,
Irene

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I pray that you are blessed by my sharing and that you find victory in your suffering.

With lots of love,
Irene